It hasn't been a long day but I am still tired.  HistoryBoy woke up with a headache.  I gave him some tylenol, let him rest a little and he went in an hour late.  I am not letting him miss one of the last 3 days of school.  Besides I need the break too a little.  I am still feeling drained.  Like someone unplugged my energy cord and I can't find it to plug it back in.  So I am running on empty.
I've done it before.  But I was younger and maybe I bounced back easier.  I am not bouncing back.  I feel more sluggish everyday, but on a positive note, I am having less headaches.  Maybe one a week or less, but how do I function when my body just wants to sleep.  I have an active 10 year old for a son who will soon be on summer break.  He is understanding when mommy is sick but right now, I am not. 
Sometimes I feel he deserves more from me.  I know every once in a while he feels that way but most of the time he is happy with his mom the way she is because I am just that he mom, the only one he has.  So how do I balance me.  Right now, I can't because me isn't moving in direction I want it to and it sucks.  I feel like I am stuck in this horrible  achy sleepy wasteland that I can't get out of. 
On another positive note, my family says my mood had improved,  so I am happy about not feeling well. Not sure how I feel about that. Talk to you tomorrow
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